.Friday, October 16, 2009 ' 11:43 PM Y
live & regret.
Currently tuning into: Hey Monday - 6 Months
Everything you say,
Every time we kiss, I can't think straight,
But I'm okay,
And I can't think of anybody else,
Who I hate to miss as much as I hate missing you.
So please, give me a hint,
So please, give me a lesson on how to steal, steal a heart,
As fast as you stole mine, as you stole mine. Just recovered from another mood tantrum. Was in a terrible mood, after practically yelling at everyone ran into my room, & once again, started crying till I fell asleep. I'm getting sick of all these emotional breakdowns. Even Amin asked me to call just now, & knew something was wrong from my voice. I didn't need him to know that I just spent another few hours crying really.
I rmbr one of my main aims when I created this blog. No emotional letouts. Gah, guess I broke that rule once again. Reading back my posts, I'm so messed up. At one time I perfectly well & happy, not giving a fuck about anything else, & then at another time I'm all sniffy & wet from crying & somewhat screaming in a corner on my bed. At one time I'm telling the world I don't give a fuck & at another I'm getting all fucked-up over some boy. & the most idiotic thing is that when I complain about something the next day something else happens to make some statements of mine in my blog somehow pointless. Rawrr. I'm on the verge of being mentally ill.
I need a break, some time to help me gather myself back up, especially when my whole life seems to somehow be falling apart. I'm still pissed off at the fact that I had to end up this way over some pathetic boy. If it's about studies or something at least it would make more sense.
I just wanna fall asleep, & wake up when October ends. This month, is one particular month where I just don't want to rmbr. Not that I can forget it really.
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i'm okay, until i realise that things will never be the same.
