.Saturday, October 10, 2009 ' 1:18 AM Y
live & regret.
Currently tuning into: Evanescence - My Immortal
I'm so tired of being here, suppressed by all my childish fears,
And if you have to leave, I wish that you would just leave,
Your presence still lingers here and it won't leave me alone,
These wounds won't seem to heal, this pain is just too real,
There's just too much that time cannot erase.
When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears,
When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears,
And I held your hand through all of these years,
But you still have all of me.
I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone,
But though you're still with me, I've been alone all along. Okay. So today was one of a hella weird-o day. At 6am this morning Haikal texted me, said that he wanted to come Subang have dinner & shisha with me,since his parents xde kat rumah & he had to eat out. Tp last2 xjd, psl mama die suruh die gi rumah mmbr kpd mama die tuh. Haha.
So, day was bored & fucked up as usual, until in the afternoon mummy went into the room, while chatting with my auntie on the phone. Pe lg, gi la manje2 ngan mummy HAHA. Lied down on mummy's tummy while listening to her conversation with my aunt, Mama Ping. Menyibuk la skali skale. Hoho. After that, while she was playing with adik's Gameboy started chit chatting.
Mummy & I, talking of the men. HAHA. Mummy asked me how were things with Amin, & told her it was just like tht, probably finished. She started talking bout Papa, & I about Amin, & with both agreed on one thing; that we can nvr change the ppl we love the most, so might as well wat bodo je. Wtf. I just love the fact that mummy understands how I feel the most, despite her not knowing every detail of what's really been going on with me & him.
N'way, to continue on, Mama Ping was talking about Mama Han (my other auntie), who colored her hair burgundy, & how it turned out to be damn cun. Pe lg, die nak follow la kan. Haha. Skali Mama Ping asked me if I wanted to color my hair, & without second thoughts I said yes. Haha.
So, went to their hse. Was Mama Han's b'day, so celebrated it, in a simple way. You know how simple?
With a kek lapis & lilin yg korg pasang klu xde elektrik. Ngahahahaha. Punye la klaka. Mama Han couldn't find any candles, so her husband, Uncle Don slambe only tell her to use those candles. Sheesh. After that, went to Giant Putra Heights, bought what we needed, & pe lg, blik rumah msing2 color rmbt! Hoho.
Oh, Uncle Don, Mama Han & I were talking about clubbing. Agak x kepuasan ati wtf, fer the fact tht stupid MOS raised their entrance age limit to 19 fer girls. Was planning on having my b'day done there, since it would be a Thursday night & I'd be legally 18. Punye la bengang. Pfft. Mama & I agreed on one thing though: MOS is jam-packed & filled with sluts who are better off not wearing clothes at all.
Before.
The subject to future changes. Wtf.
Colour? Mahogany. (:
Menanti.
Cam xde beza je. Pfft.
Randoms, from today.
Camwhore in the act.
So. Tht's how I sleep every night nowadays. Wearing nothing but his T-shirt & hugging our teddy bear.
As Ashley Tisdale puts it,
I'm such a hot mess with you.;)
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i'm okay, until i realise that things will never be the same.
