.Sunday, November 22, 2009 ' 11:54 PM Y
live & regret.
Currently tuning into: Alexandra Burke - Bad Boys
Some think it's complicated
But they're straight upfront for me
I don't need no explanation
It's nothing more than what you see here
My heart still feels divided
Halfway between wrong and right
I know I'm playing with fire
But I don't know why Saturday, November 21st.Had Writing For Business replacement lecture in the morning. Class was supposed to start at 10, but Mr Yaw arrived at almost 11. Claimed that he forgot got class. Wtf. So basically, I went all the way there fer a stupid one hour lecture. Pfft.
After class patah blik Subang. I wanted to go to Keramat but Umi didn't call me yet, so decided to hang around at Nad's. Had lunch there, & at around 2 Umi called me, telling me that she was at home already but it seemed like it was gonna rain, so suggested me coming another day. Told her it was okay, wasn't raining in Subang yet, & I was fine. Had been wanting to go back there fer quite a while now n'way; wasn't gonna cancel it over a little rain. So pe lg, grak la ngan Nad.
Arrived there at around 4-ish. Was drizzling a little along the way, kinda jam, but otherwise fine. Punye la excited nak gi Keramat kan. Haha. So, as usual, chit chatted with Umi, helped her prepare tea. Asked Yon to drop by too, since I promised that I'll meet him when I went there. Yon pun rase plik, 1st time dtg rumah Casper tp Casper xde. Hahaa.
Chit chatted about random stuff with Umi, the four of us. Told me that Amin didn't call her this week, & asked me if I knew where he was. I told her that I didn't know, hadn't contacted him since my b'day. Basically, I was lying. I knew fully well where the fuck he was, being at his girlf's house in Ipoh, but I didn't want to create trouble, since basically, it was obvious that she had no idea that Amin was no longer with me.
P.s, to Amin; I didn't do it to save your fucking ass, I did it just so that Umi didn't have to worry so much about this fucked-up son of hers.Then in the end I asked her about Wani. Had the sudden urge to ask her, to see how much she knew. Not gonna give full details here, b'cuz I don't think
Casper should know what I had been talking about to his mum. In short, the interesting part was when I came clean with her, telling her everything, mainly about how I had already broken up with him in July, but he just so happened to be with that girl since before we broke up.
Umi, was obviously dead shocked when I told her that I had broken up with Amin a few mths back. Didn't dare look at her after I finished, was on the verge of crying. Eventhough I didn't look at her, I could practically feel the look on her face. As Nad said, there was a genuine look of shock after hearing what I had to say. She knew, that I meant what I said, that I wasn't playing around, that all this while I was serious in being with Amin.
N'way, after a little advise from her & stuff, I swear to God I felt better. All her words were comforting & supportive, & somewhat similar to mummy's. I'm already part of the family, what's left to say really. At 7 had to leave, since Nad was complaining on wanting to go home. Pfft. Before leaving, left Amin's shirt, my other necklace, & a cd of all our pics in his room. His whole room was all empty, except for some junk & obviously, my 'Amin♥Farah' necklace was still there too. Pape je la. Umi, Ayah & kak Intan wanted me to follow them to some kenduri, but since I had company, xjd la kot. Haha. N'way, she was sweet. Asked me to come over during Raya Haji, if I xjd blik kg.
To Yon: I sll lupe nak snap pic ngan you ouh.
=.=
Sunday, November 22nd.Was supposed to go to Desa Waterpark with mummy, but xjd. Fer one, she was sick, & we didn't even know the way there. Sheesh. So, decided to go to the gym. Nad said she was gonna be there with Saleh & Aben, so since my plans were cancelled considered joining them after my gym session.
At first was very the mlas, cuz Haikal said that he couldn't come, but in the end he came with some of his other friends, but told me not to tell Nad & Saleh. Lol.
So, after gym when to meet Nad & the gang at the game arcade. was busy texting with Haikal, until Nad asked me who I was texting with. Told her some random myspace dudee. Haha. Then last2 when to look for Haikal, & brought him to them. Punye la t'kjut dorg. Ahaha. Oh, & I played DDR for the 1st time in a game arcade! HAHA. Besh la gak.
After that when to KFC, where we met the rest of the gang, Syukri, Syakir, & Poji. Said there laughing like org gile. Haha wtf. After that went out lpak.
Merempat kat tgh2 jln HAHA.
Nad. Haikal menyibuk blkg! :P
Aben tido hahaa. Kononnye sweet la sgt kan muke akuh. T_T'
Candid.
Haikal snap pic Syukri. Menyibuk jap. Hahaa.
Haikal & Saleh.
Pic2 yg menimbulkan persoalan. HAHAA wtf.
At last, main game lg. Wtf.
Abg gymmmmm! I nak youuuuu!!!! NGAHAHAHAHAHA.
>.<"
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i'm okay, until i realise that things will never be the same.
