P.s. To an EX best friend,

Haven't given a damn about your life in ages. But, judging by the look of your myspace page, you nailed it well. I haven't heard from you in ages, since Raye to be precise, & I have no intention whatsoever in going to you anymore & pretending that I still need someone to share my everyday life & problems with. A new life. New friends to share your probs with, someone you love that you still have. While you forget about this girl right here who's supposingly been your best friend for 7 years. I should be jealous perhaps?

Fuck no. For you, you have things that would not be there with you for long. Friends, boyf. I, however, may not have all that, but I have a family, one for sure that has a life guarantee that they won't leave me alone in times of need. That can still give me love & happiness if even for a moment. Right until the day I grow up & pass it on to my own family. A bit bitchy of me huh? It's life, face it. Life's a bitch, it's harsh, so learn to deal with it.

I've had a lot of experiences from the people I love the most; boyfs, best friends. & I'm sure I've mentioned that at least a few times to them. Abandoning me in times of need, doing things that obviously break me apart. So much more. Which is why I always force myself to be reminded how it's best to be alone. It's hard, but you receive less pain than you would having people you love around.

Not trying to tell the whole world that I've been the perfect friend or girlf to anyone really. I made my own mistakes too, but I learnt from them, even if I had to make the same mistakes twice or more. But I've never gone to the extend of forgetting my best friend completely, no matter how perfect my life supposingly was.

Bottom line, the two people I love the most left my life, & I never expected one of those two spots had you included. But hey, that's life, I've realised. Nothing goes our way.

I loved you, even if I did put you second after ^him. & I sure hope you read this, b'cuz I'm not here to bitch, but I'm here as a friend. Only good friends will be honest right in your face, telling you nothing but the truth, no matter how it hurts. The ones that tell you white lies to protect you, are not friends at all. You've heard it from one best friend, now you heard it from the other.

Love,
An EX best friend.
xoxo.



At first I thought Desperate Housewives was just another stupid series that you watch for entertainment, but it never struck me that it shows it all. Life, really is that harsh. I've learnt a lot from that show. I laugh, I cry watching that show, & it's now top on my list. & Susan, that role Teri Hatcher's playing, her character somehow reminds me of..me. Unable to let go of the past.





Oh, was browsing my old blog right now fer the fun of it. & I found a post I had completely forgotten about. Done in January 2009. Here it is, just for reads.

Abdul Muhaimin Osman bin Osman! I, Farah Alia bt M. Yusshri, love you so damn fucking much & I will for as long as I live. I swear that I just can't stand life without you! You're currently the hand tht holds my heart, the one that makes my life complete, the happiness tht keeps me enlightened all the time. You're the only one in my seventeen yrs of life that I truly trust, the only one I could ever love this much. I'm definitely yours, & no one elses, no one at all. You fucking own my heart, & no one else is allowed to do so. ILYSDFM SYG! <33

I sure can't wait to write my end of the year synopsis nx month. It's gonna be hell of a post I'm sure.

Oh, & Yon just re-added me in myspace. Haha. Had a weird feeling he'd add me back these few days. Funny how accurate my instincts are at times. But I'm cool with him really, I've forgotten the past.

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i'm okay, until i realise that things will never be the same.