.Monday, February 1, 2010 ' 12:32 AM Y
live & regret.
Currently tuning into: Cheryl Cole ft Will.I.Am - 3 Words On This Day In Your Life Farah, God Wants You To Know..
that to worship God you must go beyond words to speak with your heart. You can mouth the words of a prayer all day long and just waste your time, unless you also speak with your heart. And to speak with your heart means to embody first. If you pray for love, be loving. If you pray for wealth, be generous. If you pray for health, practice health yourself. What is your favorite prayer? How can you begin to embody it? Finals officially start tomorrow. I've screwed enough Marketing notes in my head these two days, so I fucking hope I make it through. Didn't mention did I, mummy offered rm500 fer each sub that I can score B & above for. If I got all Bs I'd be fucking rich wey. 0.0
Oh, & the other day one of UTAR's staff called me. Wondered what the hell I did this time, when she offered me to model fer UTAR's advertistments & shit. Wtf. The bad news? It's in Kampar. Pfft. N'way, told me she'll contact me if I do my degree in Kampar, which I don't think I will.
I've been wanting to blog fer days, but studying has been keeping me behind. As a result, I seriously don't remember what I want to blog. Sheesh. Nvm then, signing off now, esok exam kul 9 lak.
Current addiction?Cheryl Cole. Her songs are awesome, & she's friggin hot.
Current aim?CNY's coming. There's this cheongsam that I wore like 7 years ago, but wore it only fer a while, cuz after that cannot fit. A few days later I dug it out & tried it on. Amazingly, it fitted. Well, somewhat tight thought, but it's saying something. Imagine weh, a dress that I could wear like 7 yrs ago, now only can wear again. Saying something ain't it. N'way, my aim? To be able to actually wear it loose during CNY. :D
Current worries?Finals obviously. Nak tunggu dah 2-3 ari nak exam br nak serious. Xke bangang. Ish. Apart from that, my tummy seems to have grown big. Kene puase la gak aku lps nih. T_T
Current thoughts?I've been thinking about him these 2 weeks or so. When I say 'him' it's obvious that no matter how many million guys there are in my life I only refer to one particular one. I've spend a fair amount of times crying myself to sleep without any reason these few nights. Pfft. Nasib baik ade lg bear I.
Idk why, but I've been single fer 5months now, & there's still no genuine want to actually have another boyf right now. Yea, I'm close to a few guys atm, but I just can't get myself to have any feelings fer them; it's just not the same. I feel like I'm permanently scarred fer life. Pfft.
One thing's fer sure though. Boys know I'm off-limits when I still talk about 'my ex'. & tbh, I don't really want another boyf in my life. I admit, I am better off without him, but that doesn't change the fact that I still love him & miss a drop dead lot.
After-exam plans?Merdeka la wey! Hahaa. First off, nx Monday there's a special Zumba class at gym; two hours non-stop. Bryan's been telling me about it fer ages, & finally it's here! Yeay!
Then, I've got another session with Shah. Plan on doing it nx week too. Which is why I should probably starve myself fer this week if I want to lose at least 3 kgs on the scales then. Sheesh.
Apart from that, wanna go to Keramat to see Umi. Told mum already, that I wanna give a box of oranges, since its CNY, & if I'm in the mood I'd bake that cake they all love so much. Weee. Oh, apart from seeing Umi, wanna lepak with Yon too. Rinduuuu! Hahaa. ;)
Most importantly of course,CNY! Weeee. No matter how long mummy wants to keep me from dying my hair red I'll still get it done by then, even if it involves me having to pay Mama Han just to get it from her. Pfft. Mau dpt lbih 'ong' utk CNY HAHAHA wtf.
xD
29/012/10. Prut buncit la hahaha.
Ok, really should sign off now. It's 1.30am, & I have to get up at 6am later. Wish me luck bbys. Nitee.
xoxoxo.
Btw, Welcome February. Gosh time flies.
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i'm okay, until i realise that things will never be the same.
